Tuesday, June 16, 2015

Please Keep Them Safe Jesus

YOU ARE GOD ALONE by Craig & Dean Phillips

You are not a God created by human hands
You are not a God dependent on any mortal man
You are not a God in need of
Anything we can give
By Your plan, that's just the way it is

[Chorus:]
You are God alone, from before time began
You were on Your throne, You are God alone.
And right now, in the good times and bad
You are on Your throne, You are God alone.

[Verse 2:]
You're the only God whose power none can contend
You're the only God whose name and
Praise will never end
You're the only God who's worthy
Of everything we can give
You are God, that's just the way it is

You are God alone, from before time began
You were on Your throne, You are God alone.
And right now, in the good times and bad
You are on Your throne, You are God alone.

Unchangeable (Unchangeable)
Unshakable (Unshakable)
Unstoppable (Unstoppable)
That's who you are (That's who you are)

You are God alone, from before time began
You were on Your throne, You are God alone.
And right now, in the good times and bad
You are on Your throne, You are God alone.

Unchangeable (Unchangeable)
Unshakable (Unshakable)
Unstoppable (Unstoppable)
That's who you are (That's who you are)

Dear God,
I am trying so hard to understand. I'm trying to bend myself to your will. I keep reminding myself that you are GOD. YOU are in control. God, please give me peace and comfort. God, please, if there is away, please let me know they are safe. 

God, I also keep reminding myself that your love is undeniable, for all of your children. So God, I also pray for him. I know that a person can't change, but God, nothing is impossible with you. God, please find a way into his heart. God, make it so that no matter which way he turns, he has to come face to face with you. God, I pray for him. God, please change his heart.

God, I also pray for her. Give her strength to do what ever needs to be done to protect her and her child. God give her wisdom. God give her mercy. God give her protection. God help her remember who she is. God, open her heart so she can feel of your love and mercy. God, please just keep her safe. 

God bless her son. Keep him safe. Please keep him safe. He's the one comfort she has through all of this. Give him good influences in his life so that he will be able to raise above this. God, help raise him close to Thee so that this cycle will not continue with him. God, please keep him safe.

God please give her family peace and comfort right now. God, I'm so heart broken; I can only imagine how much worse their pain is right now. Please help them pick up the pieces and move on. Help them to never loose hope that their daughter and grandson will be okay. God, please, if it is possible, please let them know she is safe. Please help them find a way to let her know how much they love her and that they will never stop loving her. 

God, please keep them safe. Please, please help them come again. Come home to stay. God, I wish I could see your plan, but I will just have to trust that YOU are in control.

Please keep them safe Jesus. 

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Dear God,

She walked away with nothing. I know you used a miracle to help get her away. I know you will also use a miracle to provide for her. Jesus, I want her to know that she is so loved that she doesn't need to ever go back.

Jesus, I can't believe the people that have asked me how they can help. They don't even know her, but they want to help. Thank you Jesus for using them to be a part of this miracle.

Lord, clear my head and let me know how I can best help. My thoughts are going a million directions, but I do need to just concentrate on a few areas.

Lord, I also need patience granted to me. One person questioned my motives and it really upset me. I thought they would be just as happy as I am, but instead they are a doubting Thomas. Lord, don't let me get any thoughts like that. If I have to help set her up a hundred times, I will do it. I am blessed with so much. I want to use those blessings to create blessings for others. Do not allow myself to start questioning if it is worth it or not, because it is. Do not let those doubt enter my head.

Lord, please help her. Even though she is home, I think the struggle is just beginning. Please surround her with love and peace Jesus. Please. Please clear her head so she can better understand the situation. Help her let go of all the negative in her life and anything & anyone that is attached to it. Help her to heal not only from any physical wounds, but also heal her emotionally. Heal her heart Jesus. Help her be able to grieve the end of things in a healthy way.

Lord, please help her family and friends. Use us as instruments in Your hands. Help us show her how much we love her. Help us keep her safe.

Please Jesus, help this be a new beginning for her.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Answered Prayer

God is great.

A few months ago, I noticed a friend was in an abusive relationship. I worried about her so much. Then signs started to show it was getting worse. I just wanted her to come home to her family.

For weeks I prayed non stop. "God, please keep her safe. Jesus, just bring her home." Day and night, that was my prayer.

Last week, a young man in our community died in an accident. I was upset with God. Why would he take such a wonderful husband and father from this earth so soon and leave my friend in this bad situation? I had to remind myself that God works on his own timing and all would be okay in the end. "Please Jesus, please keep her and her baby safe until she can find a way to come home." I turned it over to God's hands and was prepared to wait on Him. I knew I could trust Him to do what was best for her.

On Monday, I talked to another person that used to be in an abusive marriage and asked what I could do to help this friend. She suggested contacting her and telling her about a victims advocate office in her city. And to tell her to start a restraining order. I was still trying to find the best way to express myself and I promised myself I would send that email to either her or her mother by the end of the week.

God is great. Last night, the mother posted that she was able to bring her daughter and grandson home, to stay. I didn't even get a chance to send my email because God took care of everything.

I have gone from crying tears of fear to tears of joy. Today, my nonstop prayer and been "Thank you Jesus. Thank you for bringing her home. Thank you for keeping her and her son safe."

Thank you Jesus.




Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Joseph

My goal this year is to read the bible. As I've read, I thought I would relate most to those who struggled to have a child of their own, like Abraham and Sarah.

But instead, the story I keep going back to is the one about Joseph. As I was reading his story, I first felt sorrow. To be betrayed by your own family must have been horrid. Some of his brothers wanted to kill him; in the end, he was sold into slavery.

But he made his best of the situation and was eventually given a higher position. But again, the devil tried to take him down. Even though Joseph choose the right path, his accuser won and he was thrown into jail.

I couldn't help but wonder if Joseph ever thought if death would have been easier. First a slave and now in prison. At the very least, he must of had to wonder if he had been forgotten and forsaken.

And yet, he still made the best of his situation. He didn't sit around and mourn that life was unfair. Instead, he always took the situation and tried to make the best of it. He didn't just pass away the time, but went above and beyond.

This once shepherd boy became one of the most powerful men in Egypt. He had a humble beginning, but not a humble attitude. But God found a way to humble him and lead him to something much bigger. He didn't choose his situation. But he didn't let that stop him from doing his best. Because of Joseph, an entire nation was saved from starvation and ruin.

To top it off, he also saved his family. The same family that had once contemplated killing him.

God took his terrible situation and turned it into something great.

It makes me wonder what God has planned for me.

Sunday, May 3, 2015

Lord Jesus, help me to remember that all is on your hands. Help me to accept thy will. Help me to remember that you are on control of ALL things. Help me accept circumstances beyond my control. Help me, please Lord Jesus, to not be afraid. Help me to be strong. Lord, even if I can't understand please bless me with peace.


Monday, April 13, 2015

Peace

Dear Lord,

I love you now more than I ever have. I used to think I loved you, but I now realize, I just loved the testimony of others who loved you. I trusted them and thought it was enough.

But these last few months I have realized, what I thought I knew about you, I had no clue. I love you because I want to love you. Not because others expect me to. Not because others tell me too. I plan to continue to study your word and love you even more.

But Lord, its made me question so much. I questioned the faith I grew up with. For a while, I thought "how can so many people be wrong?" But now I see that you God are holy, and that transcends all the religions out there. Its not about worshiping in the "right" building, but just knowing that you are God.

I still worry that family will not love me when they know I no longer attend "their" church, but Lord Jesus, I know you love me and that is all that matters. I hope they will respect me like I respect them.

Lord Jesus, the hardest struggle has been wondering about my infertility. Years ago, I thought I had enough faith it would work out. I prayed and prayed. Finally, I accepted that your answer was no. And I thought that was ok.

But now, as I come to love you more and more, I feel this little speck of hope awakening. Jesus, it is tearing my heart apart. I can't do that again. I just can't. I don't have the strength anymore. I moved on. I thought I had found peace.

All I have strength for is to pray for peace. Please Jesus, just give me peace. Let me rest from this struggle. I have carried it for so long that I'm pretty sure its just a part of me. But Lord, sometimes it weighs on my heart and seems like more than I can bear.

Please Jesus, just take this burden from me. Please give me peace.

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Monday, March 2, 2015

Five Years Ago

Dear Lord,
Five years ago, we lost our baby. Because we were going to adopt her, it wasn't a normal miscarriage, just an emotional one. Lord, I never thought I would recover from that loss. I'm been reading through my blog, and also my private journal. As I look back, I am amazed at how far I have come. I have come from wishing death to take me from my grief, to being completely at peace.

Lord, through you I have been made whole. I have been able to find a new purpose in life. Thank you Lord. Even when I told myself I didn't need you anymore, you didn't abandon me. Thank you Jesus, for not giving up on me. Thank you for always loving me.

Lord, I am at peace. I am. But still, this day always brings a tear to my eye. I will never forget how excited we were to be parents. Finally, all felt right with the world. We were going to have a little girl.

I still think of little Ashlynn from time to time. I will never forget the dream we had of her. I will always hold her close in my heart. Because the little girl ended up with another family, I have no grave to mark our loss. Instead, I have a piece of my heart that will forever be broken. That is how I honor her and what almost was.

Lord, it has been a rocky journey. Thank you for holding me in your arms through the toughest parts. I still don't understand how I survived it. But I did. I now realize I wasn't alone, you were there for me. Thank you Lord.

I think of the day when life felt like it wasn't worth living. As soon as I had that thought, I saw my husband outside. He really is my everything. He is my rock. Thank you for helping me fall in love with him when I was almost too stubborn to.

Lord, I am still trying to understand your plan for my life. I spent years and years trying to be a mother. Then a few years just trying to recover from our loss. Over the last few years, I've been more about living in the moment and appreciating what I have.

Lord, please take me in your hands and mold me to what you would have me be. I can accept that you have a different plan for me than I ever did. Please help me to see it one day so that I may have better understanding of what we went through.