My Spiritual Blog's Purpose

As I mentioned, in my first post, I have discovered a burning desire to renew my relationship with Christ. I've been wanting to write about my thoughts and feelings. But they are very near to my heart, so my family blog didn't feel like that right place. So then I thought of writing it on my infertility blog, but that too didn't feel quite right.

I wish I had started this blog sooner, because I know I have already forgotten things I wanted to ponder futher. Luckily, I had the mindset to at least write about my Noel, until I could decide where I wanted to share it.

This summer, I expressed my desires to a friend about making peace with God. She encouraged me to follow my heart. But I was still scared and hesitant. Its hard to step out of your comfort zone, especially into the unknown. I knew I didn't want to go back to an LDS church house, but I wasn't sure where else to go.

I kept telling myself, just pick a church on the road and go. My heart kept leading me towards the Roosevelt Christian Assembly, but I couldn't make myself go alone. Each week, I would say I was going to go. But come Sunday morning, I would chicken out.

When that sweet gentleman prayed for me over the phone, I knew he went to the church house. But I was still scared.

Then my dear friend said she would go with me, and that was the same one she mentioned.

It almost feels like fate.

The first Sunday was over whelming. They are very different from what I grew up with. Not in a bad or better way; just plain different. I was the only person in a dress and the only one not drinking coffee. Don't mistake that, I had drank my coffee before going, I didn't know I could bring it with me.

Before leaving that day, I had made a new friend. So it wasn't as scary to go the next week. Or the next.

Without even noticing it, I looked forward to church every week. I would find myself, 4 more days until Sunday. 2 more days. Finally, its Sunday!

Each week seems to bring me new insight, understanding or other thoughts I promise myself I will further ponder on. Sometimes I remember; sometimes I don't. I'm hoping this blog will help me with that.

This is a journey for me to find Christ. I'm not going to prodcast it to the world, but I'm also not going to make it completely private. My hope, is that if someone is struggling, they will stumble here and it will help them along their way.